I’m a dad to an 11-year-old, a 9-year-old, a 6-year-old, and a 4-year-old. I wouldn’t call myself an expert, but I have felt all the ways you’re feeling now and so I do have some thoughts.

First of all, yes, it does get easier. You’re at or near the absolute hardest part of having a young child. For my kids, I won’t sugarcoat it, the hardest part was when they were three (we called it “threenagers”), so you may have another year or two yet to go (though if you look at our age span, you’ll see that we always had another baby right around that time, too, right up until the last one who was the easiest, so take that as you will). But after that phase, I will honestly say that my kids have become four of my best friends. It’s a weird friendship, but it is a very rewarding one.

Second, there are different kinds of hard. You mentioned the rut, the exhaustion, the amplification of existing depression and anxiety, and the feeling like you aren’t strong enough to do a good job; that’s a great summary of the four different ways it gets hard. Not all of them get easier all at once, but they do all get easier. Kids grow up. That’s both a blessing and a curse.

Third, part of the way it gets easier is that you just learn better ways to deal with the stuff that’s hard. I needed a routine so that my days didn’t become a rut, and I needed to journal (my form of journaling is heavy on photography right now) so that I could see all the ways I was actually doing a good job. It sounds like you’re already medicated and in therapy (it took me four times as long in parenting to get to that point, good on you). I will be honest, I still haven’t really found a good way to get enough sleep. But I have it on pretty good authority that teenagers sleep a lot, so I’m hopeful that it’ll sort itself out soon.

Overall…well, I’ll put it like this: Last year, my oldest beat me at chess, 100% legit, for the first time. My 9-year-old is maybe the most thoughtful and empathetic person I’ve ever known. My 6-year-old just learned how to read (a bit late), I think mostly so he can play Pokemon for the first time. My 4-year-old is just so excited about everything and anything. They’re making friends and having a life outside of me, they’re helping out around the house, and they’re coming together as siblings.

Being able to write a paragraph like that is what makes it worth it, and what really makes it easier in the long run. Sometimes the greatest accomplishment is just keeping them alive for twenty-four hours (and I don’t just mean right at the beginning), but eventually you get new and different problems and they start helping with the solutions.

At the end of the day, you obviously care a lot, and that’s the #1 clearest characteristic of a successful parent. So it sounds to me like you’re on the right track.

When they can hold their own food in fork it will be easier. When they can use the restroom and clean themselves it will be easier. When they can help you clean the house it will be easier.

They’re going to introduce all new emotional strain to your life eventually, but they get remarkably easier as they become more competent. Part of your job is to make them competent at things.

Father of an ADHD 9-yr old who I love dearly. To quote a song from Hot Mulligan:

“Things don’t get better just different”

Parent of 4 and 6 year olds here–short answer, yes. Specifically, around age 4 is when you get better sleep and your kid doesn’t require quite as much supervision. There are challenges at every stage, but 0-5 is the hardest in my opinion. It’s okay to put some things on hold and lower your expectations for that time.

Yes. Do your best. Take care of yourself. Keep going. It gets better.

Yes. For one, the older they get the more independent they get. When they’re little its like you gotta lug around like 2 large bags and a playpen if you wanna just like go to someone’s house. Eventually you don’t need the playpen, then two bags becomes one bag, then the large bag becomes a small bag and then they can just carry their own little backpack if they need any personal items.

In a couple years, prob when he’s between 4 and 5, if you need to go anywhere, you can just be like “let’s go!” And he will put on his shoes, put on his coat, run out to the car, open the door, jump in his carseat, buckle his seatbelt, and be ready. This is very fun.

If he is a 2 year old boy, there’s a good chance he will still be in diapers, so not changing diapers is a big QOL improvement.

2 yo can be very challenging. Take him to the park where he can run off all that energy. He will chill out. My oldest son was extremely challenging when he was that age. He was impulsive, destructive, unpredictable. If he wasn’t in the room with you he was painting the carpet with nail polish. If we invited people over for dinner, he would grab whatever was laying out on the dinner table and break it. He quick grabbed cellphones and immediately dropped them in classes of water, he would grab your glasses off your face and just break them in half. He destroyed multiple baby gates within seconds. But I just took him to the park in the morning, let him run, tried not to be too hard on him despite being sometimes incredibly frustrated. Told him I loved him every day, sang him to sleep. He chilled out, and now he’s a hard working, committed young man. He’s still a pain in the ass, but he’s a good guy, I love him and trust him.

It gets easier but it gets more complicated. Some of the issues that can come up around age 11-13 are not easy. But its also my favorite age, because they become like self aware in a way that they weren’t before. They develop little identities, but they’re still kids. But this process, esp around other kids going through it can be really difficult. Teenage years can be difficult, even if they’re not rebellious and chaotic, they become very self absorbed and it feels like they’re slipping away. This also changes with time, and it has its own rewards watching them mature into young adults.

Parenting never gets easy, but those young years when they are so dependent on us are the most like labor intensive, and the labor is very like “make sure you have all of the 500 things you need for them in order to leave the house.” Make time for your self and your partnership if there is still a partner in the picture. Ask for help if possible from relatives. Don’t lose yourself and don’t let your partner (if there is one) lose themselves either. Strive for balance over happiness. The happiness will come if there’s balance, and it gets easier to find balance as they become more independent. But ironically, with independence comes strong ambivalence, not necessarily like happiness.

Hang in there dad, you got this

My daughter is 20 and in college now but I was a single dad and spent many days like you where parenting took every minute I had.

It absolutely gets easier. You’re In the phase where they’re mobile, can’t do anything for themselves, yet somehow, if you look away for 3 seconds they will burn the house down.

They start taking care of themselves more and rmore, requiring less constant watching until one day you wake up and they’re 20 and in college

It gets … different. With 3-5 you get to sleep again. But instead you get fits of rage that can last for hours. 6-… you get a know it all that can’t accept when they are not right.

This is how far along I am now. And technically it is easier to handle the Kids. But the problems they make for themselves are also biger and harder to solve.

Once they go to school, you will feel like you finally get some free time back and now you’ve learned to appreciate free time like never before.

Yes.

Teach as much independence as their age allows.

Talk to them as an equal human, just smaller and less experience with things.

Calmly narrate everything you do.

Kids pickup on all this and the more they learn about how the world fits together, the more capable and confident they will be.

Try to encourage solo investigations of things, or quiet individual tasks like painting.

At 2 there is heaps of assistance you need to give. As the independence grows, your tasks may not get less, they just morph into something else.

Aye.

They say it doesnt get easier, the difficulties just change.

My son is 13 now, and Id say its true. That said, the toddler years wiped me out. I much prefer these teen years.

It does get easier, but never is it easy.

I also have depression I struggle through all these years, keep swimming, I quite literally live for my son. I was taught in those early days, you cant pour from an empty cup as a parent, so take care of yourself

I’ve been reliably told, “The first fifty years are the worst”. Hope that helps.

TL/dr: Self care is important. Ask for and accept help. It’s hard but you will get through it, we’ve all been there to some degree even if we don’t admit it. Self care is important There are some great times, enjoy them. They’re only young once. And finally, self care is important.

I wouldn’t say it gets better, but it does get different as they grow. I was told it gets easier when they get past 35 (years).

You seem to be stuck in that day to day routine where you’re feeling spread too thin with no end in sight. We’ve all been there and you just have to dig in and survive it. This isn’t meant to make you feel worse, rather, that you’re not alone. You have a chance to show your boy a whole world of things and every day is a new experience so while you’re knackered, treasure the moments you can, they’re precious. My kids still talk about a bedtime story that I acted out one night, it was 15 years ago. It’s all worth the effort.

Now, you can’t do your job if you’re burnt out. You deserve and need some you time to recharge your batteries. Maybe you can even get some hours off work to help. Go for a walk, go to the gym, ride a bike, whatever you can do in a stolen hour for a break. Yes it sounds like another thing to add to your todo list… It is, but you need to be you to help him grow. Self care is more important than you would believe.

That you accept you have depression is a big step. It took me years to get there. Honestly, well done. Asking for help from organizations, employers, colleagues, friends, family or even internet strangers is not admitting defeat, it’s getting a power-up. It’s not easy, but it helps.

Weekdays are hard, plan for the weekends. We often took our kids for a walk in the woods when they were young. We’d come home cold, dirty and tired, but we’d collect things, climb trees, talk to friendly dogs, we’d just live a bit and connect with life and things that matter. In a few years you’ll turn into a source of money and transport.

Finally, having kids is a big life change, it’s ok to miss your previous life. It’s not necessarily gone for good, just paused if you want it to be. Its even ok to not like your kids sometimes… All kids are arseholes when they want to be. These things will pass, you will endure. If you have the choice between laughing or crying, try laughing first, but a good quiet sob can also help if you need one. You can do this.

1. The “terrible twos” are called that for a reason.

2. You wrote “patenting” in the title instead of “parenting”. You might want to fix that!

Somewhat easier, yeah. I’ve got a 4yo girl now, and she has become very responsible. I still have to do a lot of work getting her to TK and stuff, but I have a lot more time and don’t have to fully keep an eye on her because she knows to ask permission.

However, your mileage may vary. My 2yo is more like your 2yo and I’m not certain he’ll be a responsible 4yo in two years. He’s getting spoiled by his big sis, too.

But I’m not back to being like my childfree self yet, and that’s a tough bar. I used to get to sleep until noon cause of my job; not so much now…