fuck I’m not in the right headspace when I’m asking this, unresolved trauma. Now I’m repeating in my head “love them more than my mental illnesses”.
I wanted to warn an organization i cared about my past and that manipulation comes naturally to me to the point where I don’t notice after the fact. I legit want see them succeeded and stand in blind solidarity.
I have reached out someone in the organization about my issues. I’m hoping they respond.
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I’ve been working on myself and trying to be a better person. I’ve seen the beauty of nature and see how the entire history biosphere has made me and the bacteria i rely on and the food i eat. i learned to love every living thing because i can use them to influence events well beyond my death. I should learn to love other people because they’re the most capable species
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I’ve done that in the past. and i work on absolutely destroying ego’s for my amusement. it’s my favorite hobby
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yeah I enjoy it, i actually hesitant to encourage that behavior or give people advice on that. I don’t want mentally abusive tactics being used by irresponsible people or other lesser narcissists.
It doesn’t sound like narcissism (from my own experience with narcissistic people). It sounds more like you are having some sort of episode. I’d strongly, strongly suggest getting in touch with a professional. I genuinely hope you are okay.
Yes.
that’s noted. but i need reasons, i have to process the logic behind the answer
I mean, the logic behind the answer is right there in the question itself. If you’re trying to be honest person because you respect this place, and it’s people, which it seems you are-
Telling them it’s in your nature to deceive is definitely a way to protect them. Even if it’s from you yourself.
okay, okay, i get it. thanks for sharing ill reread it when I sober up.
Are you manipulating us right now in order to get some answer you want?
As people said, talk to a therapist. Is this normal behavior or thought patterns? Maybe you’re going through some sort of crisis or psychosis.
Reach out to a professional for help. Good luck!
yes actually im intentionally making you all curious so that yall will listen and to help me process old trauma. yeah i plan these things in advance and i use a manipulation tactic to bring people together
Do you get some satisfaction from sharing your trauma with others? Like you get a kick out of people’s reactions?
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Are you really narcissistic or did someone just say you are (rhetorical question for yourself, not the internet)?
If you really are, congratulations, knowing and admitting is a huge thing!
Listen to the other advice, ask a professional.
I feel like you’re the first to sincerely ask that. I can answer that I just have a trigger warning about it. Even though the other threads hint to how I know outside of a professional diagnosis
It’s a neurodivergent thing, I often ask and say things outside of social habits. Also I don’t need the answer nor does it mean anything to me to be blunt, uh, again.
Okay I got ya. Nah I have an hole issue with communication. I don’t want problems to get overlooked or needless mistakes to be made.
Probably neurodivergent myself since I can’t quite connect to another person
That seems kind of antisocial and would get a lot of attention, so yeah, win-win!
Why not just talk to a professional?
time, just happened yesterday
Your employer is not your therapist.
if you truly are a narcissist, they will know after 2-3 talks with you. no worries.
Well if I was a shitty narcissist, but people are catching on that I’m shitty to MAGA and conservatives in general.
You know shitty behavior is still shitty behavior
I consider being shitty to MAGAts good behaviour
Lol they attempt to be toxic like me. I’m just waaaaay more toxic than them
The narcissist we need, but not the narcissist we deserve
Me when I’m about to do a crime: “no one cared who I was before I put on the mask”
Don’t worry I’m referring to the time I witnessed someone destroyed an inflatable trump statue
Yeah people will definitely be able to tell you’re a narcissist, so no worries ig
Lol are you actually a cult leader, but if they know I’m a narcissist then I shouldn’t feel the need to disclose.
Kinda feel like an injured animal being dog piles by other mentally ill people
You having a feeling isn’t actually linked to what other people know or vice versa
Interesting wording. But yeah it feels like signaled other people to attack my ego. Didn’t expect that I would actually retaliate against another narcissist.
That’s really a question you need to answer for yourself but everyone has issues. The fact that you are self aware of them means you know when they happen and can do things to control it better.
I don’t think you need to introduce yourself with a warning, you deserve to have privacy and boundaries while you deal with your issues and heal, but if you feel safe enough with someone to open up to them, you can explain what you’re struggling with, and in normal casual relationships, you can use that self awareness to control your issues.
Nobody’s perfect, everyone has flaws, you’re clearly not a malicious person if you’re here asking this, you’re someone who is struggling with some issues. But you recognize those issues and want to deal with them, that’s a huge step a lot of people don’t even get to.
im malicious to people i think deserve it. I dont have to pegged as a gennerally malitious (was gonna say narcissist, but your no where close to that), id say you’re a generally mentally healthy person, few flaws I can tug at (it would be petty to tug at them). I tell IDF solider that I hate them that they’re awful human beings and i hope that i hurt them emotionally, i love making people that advocate war crimes realize theyre the villian and crash out, and i openly told my maga neighbor that zohran mamdani is doing a good job to mess with him an hour ago.
the issue is I’m basically predatory against societies worst.
Being aware of your unwanted behaviour is the first step towards modifying it. Good luck!
If you are and you admit it, you’ll get more grace from intelligent people. Sometimes.
Hmmmmmm… Now how many people do I think walking around is intelligent
*are
What a deeply worrying post.
Yeah from my end there’s no one who can relate to me.
I’m exercising and gonna try to eat vitamins and unprocessed foods.
I’m also telling another person that Im concerned for them.
I’m not gonna give into toxic behavior
Your post and subsequent comments are exhibiting toxic behaviors.
Even my last reply? 😑
