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More than anything he’d probably be enlightened by the fact that I like banging dudes too.
Considering how horny I was at 14 I’d have been stoked to know there was even more sex I could have.
Shame I’m not even a little bi. (I checked.)
Did he think he’d stop banging dudes when he got older?
No, he didn’t realize that he totally wanted to
Probably not, but the Steam Deck would blow his mind.
I would’ve shat myself over VR and so many other things.
He would admire my game library, maybe even hate me for it. I wouldn’t tell him I don’t play any of them.
Yeah I’m what my 14 y/o self never wanted to become and I’m fine with disappointing him lol
Look man, If I wanted to disappoint two people at once I’d take my parents out for dinner or find a couple of neurotypicals and have a threesome.
If dinner goes well enough with your parents, maybe you can kill two birds with one stone.
huuuuuuuuuuurk
Tua!
that gave me a chuckle-urp. nice.
I’m not sure if I’d be proud or disappointed.
trigger warning
By age 10, I’d already decided I was going to kill myself at 24, and I was looking forward to it, assuming I hadn’t already died by then. By my 14th birthday, I was doing my annual countdown from 10.
I don’t know if I’d be excited that I found things that made life worth living, or consider myself a failure for getting it wrong when I tried. Reflecting on that age, I don’t think myself an idiot or anything, I just see a kid who tried their best with what they had, and had already given up on what seemed like an inescapable situation. I feel bad for 14 year-old me, and I’m not sure I’d be able to face that kid without feeling completely destroyed.
So, I don’t know if there’s some kind of psychological phenomenon at play here — but it sounds like something very similar to a circumstance my mom went through (albeit, the stakes were much different).
She used to smoke, and when she decided she wanted to have a kid (eventually me) she gave it up. What she told herself was that if she quit and wanted to start back up at 65, ok? Who cares, she’s already old at that point so it’s not like it’s worse than having smoked for the previous 45 years.
Eventually never went back to them. She is actually repulsed by cigarettes now.
I think what I take from that is my mom didn’t really give up cigarettes, at least not psychologically. In her mind she could go back at any time and there was no issue, she’d just go back to not smoking (and she didn’t even do that, she just quit). I wonder if maybe a similar thing happened to you here? You gave yourself a goal so far ahead in the future that you also gave yourself ample time to grow — even if that goal was inevitably death. It’s almost like sewerslide was your way of equalizing the playing field.
Idk, I could be wrong — I’m glad you didn’t go through with it, though.
I accredit proper medication, scaring the shit out of my friends and family who I thought would have been happy if I were gone, and LARGELY that change in mindset that you’re talking about.
Thank you for sharing that story
I’m going to enjoy torturing my 14-year-old self. My 14-year-old self was a shithead. But I was raised in a conservative Catholic house, and at that age I firmly embraced the version of reality common among the Fox News set. I was that annoying conservative high schooler. Sure I was repping hard, but I was still an idiot.
Now I’m a late-30s trans woman, about to celebrate 8 years of marriage to my wonderful husband.
The things I can say. I’m going to haunt this kid’s dreams.
I’m playing video games all day every day. He would be amazed. It’s adult me knows it’s bad
That little fuckhead got me into this mess.
14-year-old me would not be impressed, but 24-year-old me would be.
The difference is experience and understanding what the hell we’re all up against.
I’m one of the few people who’s 14 yo self would fucking admire, mostly for stupid teenage horny reasons but also video game industry reasons.
You work in the cultured video game industry?
You’re doing the lord’s work 🫡
Even better (by 14 yo me standards), I met a pretty girl online, whom I later married and got into the industry (albeit, less cultured? Lol).
When questioned by my childhood self why I am not making games myself, I point to my backlog and we both nod in agreement before I thoroughly wreck him in Smash Bros.
You think you could beat 14 year old you in smash bros?
I was way better at fighting games when I was a teen than now. I played Street Fighter recently because of whatever compilation they were selling. I suck at it now. I bought sf2 like 4 times now and beat the game with each character back in the day. It’s hard to get past the 2nd stage now.
It’s more that I was not particularly good at it yet by 14, and Smash is particular. Plus I haven’t declined (yet), but maybe when I hit 40, hehe.
Look, I’d like to see that little shit do better.
14 y/o me would be pretty damn jealous.
It’s a good feeling
Yeah, 14 y/o me had a lot of shit to wade through before he could be me. Now hes just sad it will be a lot harder for future mes.
There are many reasons I chose not to have kids
He’d probably give suicide a lot more consideration.
Listen, I’m not here to impress a mentally ill child. But also no.
ftfy.
Real talk, i was on Accutane back then and i seriously don’t remember much of my life between 13-15yo. I was only supposed to be on it for 6 months but insurance crap left me taking half doses for a couple year. The pros of that time are, ill never have a pimple again… cons include, i have extremely dry skin all the time, i tried to murder my mom, i tried to kill myself several times, i have limited memory of my early teen years, it took me years afterwards to feel “like me”. Would 14 year old me be proud of me? He’d probly pull a knife on me and forget it ever happened.
Ha ha sorry got a little dark there for a second. IDK if its even available anymore but stay away from that crap if it is.I was also on Accutane in high school. The worst was after swimming in a pool – the chlorine made my face and lips literally crack. Never tried to kill anybody, at least.
I had no idea it could do all that.
