One thing for me was how light hearted and funny Lenin was. I expected it to be really hard going like a lot of Marx but he had such a wit about him and I remember laughing out loud a few times by his turn of phrase. I don’t think he gets enough credit for it, he took a really serious, dry subject and made it enjoyable to read. He really was an incredible writer.
You said you struggled with chronic loneliness. I’m doing that right now. Long story short: I was given the short end of the straw when in comes to socializing growing up. Never made friends and never learned love. I was at my wits end for a long time and ready to end it. Because I was thrown into this system of selling myself for an hourly wage. Never having time to enjoy the things I missed. I ended up in a very bad place mentally. I really thought that was it. Just exist to produce enough money to exist another day to produce enough money… You know? It feels worthless.
But reading about the problems in our society and the fact that we have solutions to them, and there are people trying to fight to make those solutions happen?
That just fills me with hope.
Che was right when he said revolution is born from great feelings of love. So many generations before us are willing to sacrifice their life for a future they don’t get to see. I don’t know about you, but I feel very loved and comforted by that fact.