I used meth to write my book (I genuinely have an ADHD component to my mental health but it still fucked my brain and I’ve been clean two n a half years), but now I just brute force this ish. I mean, I smoke weed. Drink maybe once a week. And I masturbate to achieve ecstatic gnosis, obviously (and NOT on offbrand Walmart Benadryl anymore), but I shit out 2k-7k words a day by being agnetic, which means I always go above the call of duty, voluntarily, and I’ve done this for about twelve years, sew I r a gud @ righting automatikly liek fer reel d00d.
Don’t focus on the book. Focus on you, growing as tall as you can living your best life, and the books will essentially fall out of you as long as you’ve done the work to get where you need to be.
Yes, cocaine makes me jittery. I don’t like it. Now, Adderall and methamphetamine both work differently than cocaine (preventing reuptake of dopamine vs flooding dopamine), which both make me “feel” normal (no euphoria) but I can sit still for 48 hours straight, writing the whole time, mind being able to hold a stack of three paragraphs rather than three sentences of what I’m about to write.
But, that also led to major depression and not being able to write more than three paragraphs when sober, so I quit with my life partner’s help and now I’m just your average run-of-the-mill schizoaffective juggler, and you see how my authentic emanations are innately superior to what most people do with their lives. Ah, I shouldn’t punch down. After all, I couldn’t work at Walmart for twenty years. I’d kill myself!
I used meth to write my book (I genuinely have an ADHD component to my mental health but it still fucked my brain and I’ve been clean two n a half years), but now I just brute force this ish. I mean, I smoke weed. Drink maybe once a week. And I masturbate to achieve ecstatic gnosis, obviously (and NOT on offbrand Walmart Benadryl anymore), but I shit out 2k-7k words a day by being agnetic, which means I always go above the call of duty, voluntarily, and I’ve done this for about twelve years, sew I r a gud @ righting automatikly liek fer reel d00d.
Don’t focus on the book. Focus on you, growing as tall as you can living your best life, and the books will essentially fall out of you as long as you’ve done the work to get where you need to be.
Are you sure you actually laid off the cocaine? 😅
Yes, cocaine makes me jittery. I don’t like it. Now, Adderall and methamphetamine both work differently than cocaine (preventing reuptake of dopamine vs flooding dopamine), which both make me “feel” normal (no euphoria) but I can sit still for 48 hours straight, writing the whole time, mind being able to hold a stack of three paragraphs rather than three sentences of what I’m about to write.
But, that also led to major depression and not being able to write more than three paragraphs when sober, so I quit with my life partner’s help and now I’m just your average run-of-the-mill schizoaffective juggler, and you see how my authentic emanations are innately superior to what most people do with their lives. Ah, I shouldn’t punch down. After all, I couldn’t work at Walmart for twenty years. I’d kill myself!