Moment of clarity? Embarrassed? Lost control of an antagonistic agenda?

  • LeftReddit2@lemmy.world
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    2 hours ago

    I used to do this when I was on reddit from 2011-2026.

    I did it because I’m a narcissist. Like actually, I was diagnosed with NPD in 2023. People disagreeing with me physically hurts. I don’t know how to explain it but when a person has a worldview disagreeing with me, it feels like an attack on me and causes this kind of ache in my chest.

    Everything just gets translated to, “Oh, you think this way? God, you’re fucking stupid! I HATE YOU!” We cannot just disagree because my opinions and worldviews are so intrinsically linked with me. My whole world is me looking into a mirror and seeing nothing but my face. If it reflects something else, that’s frightening.

    I obviously am trying to be a better person now and don’t react the same anymore, but in the day that is why I would do it.

    • teslekova@lemmy.ml
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      38 minutes ago

      That has got to suck. Absolute kudos for the self-awareness and working to better yourself, npd can hurt a lot of other people if you let it run wild.

    • roofuskit@lemmy.world
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      2 hours ago

      Being a narcissist sound surprisingly like have zero inward confidence and self esteem every time I hear it described. Is that at all accurate?

  • njm1314@lemmy.world
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    1 hour ago

    95% of the time if I delete a comment it’s because it was either a mistake or I made the comment then I looked through the other comments and realized like half the thread already made the same joke.