“I wanna go home.”
I’m not sure why, this phrase has become a mental tic of mine. It makes abosolutely no sense because there is no sense in which I am not home. I live in one of my childhood houses.
Do you remember your childhood with your family when you think of going home
Nope, it’s almost like a verbal tic I don’t say out loud, it doesn’t come with thought.
Know your worth and you don’t know what you got.
One person’s trash is another’s treasure, but sometimes fixing and cleaning up an item devalues it to the right person.
A misprint is the most valuable form of currency, but most see it as a fake or worthless.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and ugly is ironically chic when value is irrelevant.
Self depreciation is fair value in your economy.
Putting money in a car for personal aesthetic taste or greater performance doesn’t add value if the engine is blown.
I’ve always been confused by this whole concept of telling myself things about myself. I see it regularly in self-help things - “You just need to tell yourself ‘I’m a good person’” or whatever - but it doesn’t even begin to make sense to me.
I don’t understand how it’s supposed to work. I’m not two different people, so I can’t tell myself something that I don’t already know. If it’s true and I can say it to myself, that’s necessarily because I already know it. And it’s not as if I can bullshit myself without knowing that that’s what I’m doing.
Sorry - probably not the sort of response you were hoping for.
I thought that I was the same as you, but actually I realise I ‘tell myself’ things all the time.
Mostly it feels like I’m bullshitting myself with things I ‘know to be true’ to drown out irrational things I feel.
Do you never have irrational monkeybrain chatter? Like, “I don’t feel like I’m ever going to be good at X”; only to reassure yourself that you’ll get better as you practice? If I ever feel disheartened, I often ‘tell myself’ that I’m not special enough to be uniquely incapable of learning whatever it is.
I put ‘tell myself’ in quotes because none of this actually happens in slow full language sentences in my head. It can, but bothering to sound out the whole thought seems silly and inefficient somehow. Mostly it happens in fragmented feelings and flashes of remembered sensations.
“Give up on being happy. It’s just a distraction. If you do not succeed you will be wretched. If you fail you will not survive.”
Not much of anything, good or bad, at least I don’t think so. I’ve been on the float for some time.
I remind myself of… Fuck I forgot.
Nah for real though, occasionally I remind myself to not take bullshit or threats from others.
Shit, even if I post some off-the-wall words occasionally, maybe I just had a bad day, ignore my dumb shit and downvote me into oblivion.
At heart I’m actually a genuinely caring person, but sometimes we all have bad days.
“OK. I can do it. I can do it. OK. OK. I can do it.”
“The time for The Old One to wake is upon us! The gates to R’lyeh quiver, the voices scream to be uncaged! Your hand is the key, the door to the other side awaits your touch! Beyond the threshold a new world hungers to devour this reality and bring forth all of time and space! It howls for you, answer the call, seize the destiny fate has hoisted upon you! Ph’nglui mglw’nafh Cthulhu R’lyeh wgah’nagl fhtagn!”
You know, just normal stuff.
twice_hatch hates herself and makes it everyone else’s problem
we can’t let them find out what we’re really like
I’m not religious, haven’t been for decades, but old habit’s die hard.
please god give me the strength to cleanse this world of these idiots.
I tell myself that if the material world is all there is, then we live in a horror show
Yeah imagine all the immaterial horrors we could be experiencing instead
This but unironically
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You did your best. Your best was just not good enough.
Be so for real right now, that wasn’t your best. You just tell yourself that so you can feel better. But you didn’t try, not as hard as you should or could have.
I’m pretty mean in here.
“I hate my life”
Every now and then this just pops in my head, even when things are objectively going well for me, I know I need therapy, but I’m jobless right now and you can’t afford health care in this country without employee sponsored health care, for now I just try to write down things I’m grateful for to keep the bad thoughts away
