I just lost two close relatives who were also friends today. We grew up as kids and they were about a year or two older than me. I’ve always been aware of death and accept it but when stuff like this happens, it’s a really strong reminder of how we’re all moving along in the line towards the end.
Over the last 13 years or so my entire family have died of everything from cancer to suicide. I’m the youngest, and I’m at the front of the line. Life is short, don’t waste time.
My sister was with my mom when she passed. Mom was 76 years of age and my sister told us all that mom’s last words were just a realization and surprise at realizing just how quickly life goes by. It’s made me think about my life ever since … death is no closer or further to us than this very moment. Everything happens in a moment and it is over.
You are right … live life now, there is no time to waste.
Anyone at the front of my line wanna let me cut in front of them?
No deaths of close relatives basically forever then suddenly 3 close ones dead inside 2 years (in the vicinity of the recent calamity) (all for causes apparently unrelated to covid, if you’re wondering, for whatever such statements are worth). Life has become sciencefictiony.
I’m attending the second funeral in as many weeks this weekend for very close childhood friends, and the thing that’s getting me is the grief of losing not just those friends, but loss and realization that I’m not even who I was when I knew them anymore
Like I’m kind of choking up now just thinking about it.
It’s been a rough month.
I won’t be attending any funerals because everyone is all separated and split off to different parts of the province. But my generation of family is a huge community of first cousins and we all grew up together as kids and teenagers. We’re all within about a 7 / 8 year gap and we were close and knew one another - there was about 30 of us all together - our grandparents had huge families and then their children had huge families. Everyone grew up became adults with their own lives and we all went our own ways with about half staying home.
Whatever the situation … it’s a huge heartbreak for everyone including myself. It feels bad, it doesn’t feel good and there’s nothing you can do about it. You accept it … but it still doesn’t feel good.
I feel your pain because I’m going through the same thing. I don’t know what to say other than to reach out to those that were part of your circle that knew everyone and to be with your loved ones.
Can’t come fucking soon enough. Every day is more shit and it’s worse than yesterday.
Ooof. This one cut deep.
